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Always said I would know where to find love
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable,
to finally be in love,
Somewhere I never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable,
to finally be in love,
Somewhere I never thought I'd be.
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I can't help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable,
to finally be in love,
Somewhere I never thought I'd be.
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(Friday, July 29, 2005-) +10:52 PM]*
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im so confused now.i dont know whether i shld step out on faith and start talking to her more or i wld just shut myself up and dont say a word.but seriously, im nt used to this type of silence.
todae was still ok.as usual i was tired.i tried sth different todae.i try nt to wear my specs too much.why? 1. i wanted to try walking ard w/0 them and see how it feels. 2.its a way of running away, cuz i dun want to see her.im afraid.im confused.but eventually, i still have to use my specs anyways.todaes maths test was tough.but it was partly tough due to e fact tt i nvr study.was damn messed up ytd.so i didnt really study.oh wells.during the assembly we had some scholar website talk followed by principal talking, halfway thru he got pissed due to our short attention span, furthermore demanding an apology frm us.wow.nvm tt.ms lee talked to we 4 regarding thursday issue.hais.then kenny and helmi came too.talked abit lo.after tt went with helmi to kopitiam.ha.the weather todae=havoc.was hot like crazy.GP was ok lo.nt too bad.walked with shuping to e bus stop.then went home.haha.thats bout it.my boring friday.
im now pondering la..she's online.shld i talk to her? shld i crap my way and pretend to talk to her abt serious stuff.everytime i talked to her, the topic will most probably be regarding sch and sch stuff.i still dont dare to talk to her abt personal stuff.worried that she might noe was is goin on inside my mind.im such a fool.
quote from my friend: if there is a wish i wanna bless u now, i will bless you with the gift to see yourself the way i see u, so that u will noe how beautiful and wonderful you are.
see ya guys tml.
till i get over you.;
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(Thursday, July 28, 2005-) +7:40 AM]*
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hais.todae is 1 of e saddest and baddest day in PJC.dunno why.todae just feel sad lo.starting of e day.onli 5 of us turned up helmi and kenny nvr come todae.so the mood abit toned down la.we pon maths.haha.but we were kinda screwed cuz Mr Wong realised we nvr turned up.so we cooked up 1 helluva of a story.eugene was sick la.vomit.i was with him.clement look after e bags.tim went to get food.haha.and he believed us.i dun think i will pon anymore.haha.after tt during geog, there was grp work.was with yvonne,hazel and him.haha.yvonne todae abit weird weird.cranky and serious.up and down.suddenly, she told me sth that i fear hearing.u like her right?.. omg.have i made things so obvious? i dunno whether im being sensitive or not..but i felt that she kinda ignored me todae.we talk v little lo..also, during e 1 hr break, we ate.then we saw bpps e ppl having sports day.seeing those cutesy kids running, was kinda funny.i cant rmb doing sports day in pri sch.haha.those days.we even bet on who is gonna win.just by whether they wear sports shoes.makes them look more pro..haha.chinese was a bore as usual.hate her more and more.dunno why.the biasness towards e sci class is pretty obvious.we voiced out our feelings to Ms Lee after GP.lols.every1 was so heated up todae.esp rah, ade and tifa.haha.i was also quite sad and angry lo.furthermore, e incident was enuff to make me feel sad for e enitre week.after sch, went with tim and gene to mac.after tt, i went home.hais.hoepfully tml will be a better day.
The worse part of life is to be hurt without being loved in the first place.~myself.
will u ever noe,ever understand. i can only look at u from far. you and him. my world suddenly felt so bland. feeling of nothingness. without u beside me.
till i get over you.;
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(Saturday, July 23, 2005-) +8:13 AM]*
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just came back from town.went to watch movie.crying out love in the centre of the world.ALONE.weird rite.all gave excuses.to those who werent free.i dun blame u.but tho those who simply said no..im so disappointed.anyways.the movie was damn sweet and sad lo..the movie is abt this guy goin back to his hometown whr he thot of his first stead.the way they express their feelings damn nice.thru cassettes.haha.cuz no HP or email at those times ma..the guy also very dedicated in e relationship.but sadly..the gal has some disease la..the gal eventually dies.there is kinda a bit of a twist in e movie.muz watch then u noe..lols.i wanted to ask her out..but i didnt dared to.i thot she might misinterpret it.
its time to tie up some loose ends.
ask urself this question:when u die, does love die too?
till i get over you.;
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(Sunday, July 17, 2005-) +7:28 AM]*
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today.chiong work.quite sianx..have to stay at home.bored.
watching movie on tuesday! finally.. crying out love in the centre of the world..
maybe i shld ask gals to watch with me some other day..then bring tissue paper!haha.
its school tomolo again.monday blues.
till i get over you.;
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(Saturday, July 16, 2005-) +6:46 AM]*
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todae.a tiring day.went for HT's bdae "celebration".catherine,her neighbour,catherine's fren, wang zhi and han wah were there.han wah and her neighbour were late.went to taka and wisma and window shop.btw, i bought plushie for HT.dun really have an idea wad to buy for her.im nt even close to her la..after the 2 of them came, we walked arnd taka and went to Tiong (the place where i started my day) and ate.bite on my lips.the worse part was that it was the same part whr the ulcer was.screw.after tt after walking ard,they went home.han wah went home.i was with wang zhi.went to bugis to check out bags.walked arnd.then i went to arcade play.haha.was bored.then went home lo.
if u dun like me,pls tell it straight in my face.dun bring agony and pain to me indirectly thru all ur small actions.i know it so clearly.
and u noe wad? im dun care.i cant do anything bout it anyway.
till i get over you.;
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(Thursday, July 14, 2005-) +8:49 AM]*
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haha.depression sets in.i did badly for tests.so what if it was happy? i still sux.12/50 for GP. Econs MCQ got 15/25. Maths lost to him.Sianx.59%.sux la.todae was damn tiring.woke up early to study geog.end up sleeping more tho..haha..sch was tiring (cuz its a thursday). the guys treat me to a small treat..cuz i got lowest among the guys for GP.haha.left for lot1 to meet WY.passed him his diary.then talked for awhile.took bus home.talked with him thru e journey.overslept on bus.lols.then saw this Outram gal on e way home..lives same blk some more..lols..she kinda cute..haha..but looks nerdy...
muz start buck up liaox..Promos nt faraway.
And jas, pls go hor! dun last minute back out.thx.
till i get over you.;
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(Tuesday, July 05, 2005-) +7:20 AM]*
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haix..
had a long day..last few to did oral..me and liyi and jiaxin were talking abt jokes all the time..lolx..
still doin my chinese..which sux totally
havent study my econs. but im confident..
any1 want iPods? cheap cheap..
come find me.
ciaox.
till i get over you.;
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(Sunday, July 03, 2005-) +8:01 AM]*
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happy pre-youth day!
stuck at home.what else? went to library though."studied" for abt 2 hours.saw may aun there.surprised surprised.talk abit too.
dunno whether want to go find her tomolo le..but she gort steadd alreadyy..haix..wad to do?
frosty brown looks so cool.
till i get over you.;
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